hymn for him

my life
my other heart
my beloved
my most important creation
my transformation
my closest relation
my evolution
my progression and  reflection
my expression of perfection
made out of all i had
i honor you with all that remains

you were my body and my future
you were wings
stretching from inside me
you were promise of life and flight
you were living, dancing Light.
you were mine
you were me.
not just part of me
but the best of me
all my life and energy
all my love.
all my love.
i’m told that i should just erase you
and the void will go away
and it’s simple to replace you
this is natural, they say
no one wants to hear about you
or the way it feels without you
but there has never been a more fierce love or bond

and now you’re gone

you were everything i wanted
now i’m empty, bleeding, haunted
but the whole world’s waiting for me to move on
and so
in my imagination
i release my great creation
to the stars
       to the stars
              to the stars

but i will never love another quite like this
i am your mother,  you’re my wish
that very nearly did come true
and always, darling,
I Love You.

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7 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. JDragonfly
    Jan 23, 2012 @ 12:42:50

    This is stunning, MG. I have a friend whose first son was still born and I know she’ll love and appreciate your beautiful poem. I’m thinking of you and wishing you comfort and, somehow, peace. All my love, J

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  2. Melissa
    Jan 23, 2012 @ 20:45:11

    Absolutely beautiful…very touching, sweet, sad, and wonderful all at the same time. thinking of you….

    Reply

  3. Alissa
    Jan 23, 2012 @ 23:59:11

    I really really love this. Did you write it? Can I steal it? Wow.

    Reply

  4. Casi Barnes
    Jan 24, 2012 @ 07:49:47

    That is so precious. How heart-felt and touching. My heart goes out to you during this difficult time in your life. I don’t know how you’re surviving and I admire your courage. Much love and peace to you.

    Reply

  5. mrs. brightside
    Jan 26, 2012 @ 23:58:42

    Even when I *think* I myself can imagine what you are going through, your writing takes me to another level. This brought me to tears, it so beautifully captures your pain and sorrow. I’m so sorry that on top of everything you’ve had to endure, you feel pressure from others to move on, to grieve faster. Do whatever you need to for yourself. Thinking of you.

    Reply

  6. Sunny Side Up
    Feb 04, 2012 @ 02:44:15

    This is beautiful, heart-wrenching and honest. A truly amazing piece to read.
    Well done on putting those thoughts into such courageous words.

    Reply

  7. Just Me, The Mrs
    Jul 17, 2012 @ 21:58:17

    Just Beautiful.

    Reply

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